the brain & the heart

the brain controls the mind, but does it control the heart, could it ?
我知道我很蠢，干嘛那么不开心。。
知道去那里是为自己好，可是我就是很不愉快啊。心情整个心就是遭透难过~
就不能发泄一下ma。。
回到那里我会撑着好好的加油。
我想这最后几天我必须做的是调适心情，而不是逃避不去想。
这样才能把那天的不开心降到最低吧。
我最不喜欢的就是当我已经习惯在家里的日子了，
过后又要在一个已经忘掉的环境或新的环境重新过日子。
真的很挣扎。
其实像我这样过这种日子的又何止我啊？
我身边到处都是。。
他们都不会像我这样吧，因为我真的没那么懂事。
或许我的想法算成熟，可是一要实际真正做到的时刻我就变相反。
很会想，但事情真的来了的时候我又被缩打成没用的自己！
尤其面对家人，我就是个玩世不恭，小于八岁-那种最讨人厌阶段的小孩。
可是面对朋友或不熟的人，我都只把好的一面show出来。
在他们面前看不到霸道的我，暴力的我，我总是很客气。因为我知道我坏的一面有多讨人厌。
我是双面人啊。
在外面受气，回家家人受我的气。
真实的我也只有在家人面前表露得出来。

最近脸上一直pop出好多豆豆。好顶不顺ar~
omg，本来是想说gathering的东西。。
last week i met up my best friends - shyan & HIPS..
though we missed yongxing,i still hope next time we cn reali meet yoo..and wish yx can meet shyan before she fly! haixx it will be next year on febuary i think~
first i went out with my ahmei!
wanna sing k at 大嘴叭，but waseh it is too famous..fully booked until 6pm only got vacancy.
so we ended up walking to sutera mall.
haa and the 1st thg i rmb, she said - im abit hungry,let's go makan.
hahaa xD
then we went for KFC, my only favourite fast food =)
we sat thr,chat bout everythg,this time chat quite lotz bout florence!heez.
知心朋友就是坐在一起讲话谈心，什么都不需要，不需要什么活动，
只要两个人都在就ok。ha以前我们就是坐在巴士没事做就一直讲讲讲。
或许是那时的经历，过后的我们只要在一起就可以讲个不停。
讲完他就带我去打game，不要看她一脸很聪明成绩很好，他连打game都不会输更厉害！
haa！真的很好玩ya~
过后陪她shopping for dress,那件真的很不错呢！
过后时间到了，我们就走到大门，在石阶上坐着聊。
拍了两张照，划下我们相聚的句点咯~
haaa我发现阿，每次找他们我都会穿这件eh，那是我们一起买的
we love camera~~~我有蓝色和这件orange的..


下一天，应该是23rd September 09,
就是去跟HIPS的死党见面咯！
下午只有我跟绮
我说去sutera mall，
哈没想到她说要吃KFC。
吃就吃咯，好吃！这次全部都是鸡尾肉-thigh~
我也带他去打game，qi就不一样，不爱打game。
不过感觉上他玩了好象也蛮喜欢的哦~ x)
我们一直玩photohunt。。
虽然那天只有她买衣服
那两天我都是陪她们买，自己都没买。
可是。。我的钱全都花在打game那里！
过后的故事很长yo。
简短来说，后来tyan&妮也上车咯，
我们去唱k，在晚上，在天上人间一间充满烟味的小房间里。
都好累哦，所以我们都不high。。
吃qi suggest的鱼片粥，ho chiak!够辣够香！
然后买东西，回qi家玩牌打麻将。
麻将真的很好玩!!!!!爱上它了。
到了2 3点，我们就腻在房间。说好要谈通宵~
然后我像以前一样摆出要睡觉的姿态，都不说话。专心的躺着~
没想到最后竟然是我跟nny谈了整夜。反而那位建议不睡的大姐第一个就倒头大睡。xD
谈了好久噢。。好像到早上六七点我们才停止说下去~
感觉真好也很难得 =D
隔天就是大家say bye bye的日子。
佃在我的一双睡眼中离开先回了~~~~
吃了早餐，中午我又吵着带她们去打game。ha有点对不起，因为本来她们想去找tyan的。。
这次的聚会跟以往不同yo，感觉很居家，更自然。我喜欢!嘿嘿~下次还要打麻将拉!





我们最后一张合照。
其实真的拍很少，我根本就没拍到什么。
不知那天怎么了，以前都很爱拍。
可能是我pimples太多没mood想拍吧。haha..而且手机也快没电~
最后再加经典一句
HIPS FOREVER!!!!!! n.n

好了，我要去看我的天龙八部。
很久以前就跟朋友借，看到第四本。
去年自己买来，终于现在又追回！
好看~不过我知道看不完拉。慢慢来咯~~

被姐姐和momo开解，现在是没那么难受了。
他们两个都说能求学是该珍惜的！我不该complain多多。要独立。
谢谢。还有ahnny，我会加油！be strong!


对，现在要做的是
好好地调适。
是要开始整理了吗？

现在的我真的很不开心
很想把全世界都摔得狠狠的
我不要去那个鬼地方
我真的很不想

何瑞灵生日快乐

another gorgeous lady i know! haa juz realise i oso have a dress like this,with sleeve =)

remember last time,last year we both celebrate our bdae together..with xinying and shyan,time passed so fast yeah..


接着jie的生日，这一天就是我bff ahflo的大日子了！！！
生日快乐yo~~~~~~
说起她，还真的跟我jie有些共同点呢！
懂事，像个大孩子，很高！怎么天秤女都高啊？
还有总是做不了决定，因为一直犹豫来犹豫去。真是的。haha~
重朋友，很爱讲电话，他们一想念谁就会直接打电话过去，喜欢用讲的不喜欢用写的。xD
所以，我常常会觉得内疚拉。。
因为flo常打来我都会好像有点不愿讲很多，有时还没有接到他的电话，也没回电。。
可是她从来都没舍弃我，还是会打来。。因而我们的友情还能固定下去yo！
十九岁咯，希望你越来越lenglui，还有开心点ya。。
知道最近的你都心事重重。。烦事。。
不过凡事自有结果。。一切都会过去。。就让它顺其自然，把握当下，好好的过！珍惜 =)
加油！
愿你身体健康~~~~~~~~
happybirthday my BFF FLORENCE n_n

对了，还有最重要的一句。。

我爱你！
love u much!!!
in the last post i fgt to say i love my jie,
love u both reali much muackxxxxxx

HaPPy BiRtHDaY to JIEJIE!!!!!!!!!

isnt she gorgeous? xD

26th September 2009

my jiejie's birthday~~~~~~~~~~~~~
she's 22 now le.....OMG!! ><

she is also the best jiejie in the world..
sometimes funnyyy and super duper cute like a kid
sometimes mature like an old lady
sometimes crazy like a monkey
sometimes quiet like a sleeping pig..
sometimes cn be annoying tooo~
intelligent,likes to watch youtube,likes to go to beach..
everyone admires her.bcs she is pretty =P
she gives me all the great advice and stopping me from getting worse..
when i was upset she sure will be there for me..
so
who cn deny that she is not a perfect jie?
heheeeee
happy birthday to my jiejie loh..im pretty sure she will hv a great bdae today with her lovely friends thereeee =)


today is great..
i got back my laptop..feels so good to have it back to me again!
have the good mood to update my blog le~~~~
and recently i have been tooooo bad.
yesterday threw my temper again when i was bout to get the letter of acceptance.
bcs i dun really wish to study thr,i actuali thought to study here.
but ya,the education quality is better there.
these three years,for my papa. i will study my best for him,not to disappoint him.
duncare how there tortures me,i will bear all..to complete my studies lor.
haixx,it's next week.im sure i will struggle alot when the time comes.=(

will write bout shyan and HIPS in the next post =)

here's the birthday card i was supposed to post to my jie..but due to the lazyness
wasnt manage to ask her address..and didnt write anything yet..show u in advance lor jie.haa!

my laptop

arrrrghsei!
intend to update my blog..
but recently really no mood lar.
now facing this old desktop..felt annoyed.but i should feel grateful
my laptop rosak dy.has to be repaired.
twoweeks.that means when i get it, then straightaway heading to that kl.
wanted to watch many dramas showbiz using pps,but i cnt!
it's really struggle man,i just quit my job and wanna enjoy my last holiday,
but the laptop rosak at this very precious moments.hmph ruin my mood.

it's ok.what happened was my fault though.
bcs i played the game for too long.but that was quite long dy.
i do remember last time i played really long
all the day let the laptop turned on.
but then i busy working,only played at night.
so i really cnt figure y it rosak suddenly.
it's the graphic driver,but i first thought is virus
so i reformat it and my thgs gone,then i realised it was not the problem
haixxx..forget it lor.
hv to spend the RM400,to repair it.hmph..my salary is reallyyy getting empty,haa!
someone please spare me...

ohyup,i am officially free from job.yohooo!
actually felt abit unbear..
that was yesterday~~i said tq to ms tan who interviewed me last time and ms irene (the other boss) shake their hand and said goodbyee!
and another girl,who is going to replace me..
taught her all i knew..hope she doing well on her new job!


well, i left 2 weeks now.
must enjoyy
shyan & nny are back and at JB now~~~
YOHOO >.<

currently i fall in love again
towards robert pattinson and kristen stewart!
they won the best kiss!
and范文芳 李铭顺 are getting married!
monday to friday channel 8 11pm - 神雕侠侣
i watch this show everyday..really 经典。
feel happy for them =)

complicated feeling

I feel Complicated.

the day is coming.

today pa brought me to open bank account just to save the money for my education purpose.

he plans everythg for me..=) such a perfect papa.

i wish the 3 years will pass fastly and then i will cm bk to my jb for the ACCA..

haiyo im being emo again. should wish that my degree will pass smoothly.

HAIYO! pls stop it.im insane already.

dun worry bout me my loves, im juz being alittle inconstant right now. x)

无知

今天周旋于和爸爸的争论中，
爸气得说了 - 无知。

如果有两种选择，
一份你不喜欢的工作可是却能赚很多钱。
一份你很喜欢的工作而赚的钱很少。


我会想选第二，因为工作是一辈子的事。当然要享受其中咯~

我以为钱只要赚得够就行了。

我问爸爸那个问题，他毫不犹豫地说当然会选赚很多的工作。

就这样我们开始了我们的辩论大赛。。

他说他的，我说我的。

虽然最后我们意见还是两个不同的点，
我发觉自己真的很无知。

钱不重要，只是因为我用的都不是自己的钱，而是爸妈赚来的。
当然就不知道它有多重要。而且越多越好。
我无法想象如果自己真的一个人在外面住，自己养自己，那会有多辛苦~
庆幸我生在这个家，有这么好那么尽责的爸妈。

或许不只是我吧，很多孩子都是身在福中不知福的。
我想这是成长的过程，
记得以前假期都是在家闲着，
到现在要开始做工，我可是算很迟了。
以后的假期也是得找工作，
因为我长大了。


所以说，当小孩是最幸福的。
越大就有越多东西烦。
越大就会碰到很多复杂的东西，解不开的难题。
人生就是这样。


对了！如果有一份喜欢的又可以赚很多钱的工作那是最好的了。哈哈~
总之，够用就好了。


there are still many things i have to learn.there are still many things i havnt experience.